OK. So I think its safe to say I have been a bit emotional this past week. Call it what you will, crying in Wal-Mart is emotional.
It all started on Monday morning when I was out running errands and standing in line for returns at Wal-Mart. This cute little boy and mom walked by speaking Spanish and he was yelling "Oh Mira" at everything. (Oh Look!!) He reminded me of a little boy I became close to from my English classes in Mexico. I began to think of little Juan and wondered what he was up to and how he was. I noticed my eyes brimming full before I knew it. Not only was I won over by emotion of missing Juan, but of missing Mexico and so many people that stole part of my heart there. I prayed for Juan and his mom that day and that God would fill them with hope of knowing they belonged to Him whether they found themselves in a good or bad day.
The week has continued with more tears. Regretfully, yet another time in Wal-Mart. And then last night watching a sappy Jif peanut butter commercial.
Concluding now on Friday I have decided that I am emotional and that is okay. I've decided I am okay with it for a few reasons:
1. I am female and allowed to be emotional
2. My fabulous fiance' Nathaniel is more than understanding and even consoles me when I know he thinks I'm insane.
3. My girlfriends enjoy the humor of seeing me turn into a sappy cry baby when it is totally out of charcter for me.
4. Most of all, I am okay and almost enjoying it because I feel God is softening and breaking me to be more open, more receptive. more aware, more sensitive to the world around me.
So yeh, I'm okay with being emotional this week. Maybe even longer than this week, depends how embarrassing these unplanned for cries become.
