It is WeLL

It is well. Its amazing to say that after just having had surgery two days ago. But seriously being in and out of the dopey moods and long naps from pain medicine, I feel it is well. There is a certain peace that comes from being at home for extended periods of time. I had my wisdom teeth pulled out on Thursday morning. My memories of this day begin at 4:30 that afternoon. But my phenomenal fiancee took great care of me all morning and afternoon. I spent that evening reading, eating apple sauce, and drifting in and out of reality. It was nice. Then I awoke way super early at like 4:30 the next morning Friday. Bright and early and in pain! But the medicine kicked in and I thought I would be fast asleep soon, however I was filled with energy. I started filling out thank you cards from last weekend's bridal shower and cleaning. When he woke up at 8 am I was like "Wait, the kitchen floor is wet I just mopped." As you can imagine he was concerned. What the heck was I doing up and most of all, what was I doing cleaning so early?!?
So yeah, the last few days he has been gone to work all day and I've had lots of time at home to myself. Its been good to relax, reflect, nap, and really just enjoy the days. I can't remember the last time I was awake at such an hour as four am! WOW! Plus I have had hours upon hour to just lay on our trampoline and read about how to start our marriage. ( by the way- a very good book that we received from our marriage counseling from Dr. Rainey) It was nice to eat sherbert...reminisce through old pics....have my pal Liane over to have girl chat and enjoy a Saturday night together....but most of all....I've found peace in this whole "getting married" thing! Lol. :) I really feel like this house has become a home to me. Just as Nathaniel prayed on Tuesday night when we learned of my surgery and that I would be staying here so he could take care of me while my apt is a mess with the move happening and me being doped up. I really do feel as though the place is becoming more of my own. And I can say it is well. I am looking forward to being a wife and building a future and life in this home with my gift of a husband. :)
It is well.

hairspray

So today during my ranting to the awesome man in my life, I was going on about hairspray. its crazy. i've tried tons of different brands and prices trying to find a good hairspray. one that will hold my hair without feeling like a sticky helmet. as one girl said, "cotton candy hair" Lol ;)
So the other night he recommended i just buy only the cheap travel version that way if i dont like it I am not out too much money. good idea. but it still is crap.
So then tonight I was listening to myself complain and I concluded, "But hey, if my biggest frustration is my disappointing hairspray I guess things aren't that bad are they?" :)
Its all in perspective, eh?

Crying in Wal-Mart

OK. So I think its safe to say I have been a bit emotional this past week. Call it what you will, crying in Wal-Mart is emotional.
It all started on Monday morning when I was out running errands and standing in line for returns at Wal-Mart. This cute little boy and mom walked by speaking Spanish and he was yelling "Oh Mira" at everything. (Oh Look!!) He reminded me of a little boy I became close to from my English classes in Mexico. I began to think of little Juan and wondered what he was up to and how he was. I noticed my eyes brimming full before I knew it. Not only was I won over by emotion of missing Juan, but of missing Mexico and so many people that stole part of my heart there. I prayed for Juan and his mom that day and that God would fill them with hope of knowing they belonged to Him whether they found themselves in a good or bad day.
The week has continued with more tears. Regretfully, yet another time in Wal-Mart. And then last night watching a sappy Jif peanut butter commercial.
Concluding now on Friday I have decided that I am emotional and that is okay. I've decided I am okay with it for a few reasons:
1. I am female and allowed to be emotional
2. My fabulous fiance' Nathaniel is more than understanding and even consoles me when I know he thinks I'm insane.
3. My girlfriends enjoy the humor of seeing me turn into a sappy cry baby when it is totally out of charcter for me.
4. Most of all, I am okay and almost enjoying it because I feel God is softening and breaking me to be more open, more receptive. more aware, more sensitive to the world around me.
So yeh, I'm okay with being emotional this week. Maybe even longer than this week, depends how embarrassing these unplanned for cries become.